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又是雨夜 2006-6-3 8:46:30 | 傍晚时分的大雨已经逐渐稀疏，离开爸爸家，星星点点的小雨正清凉。意外看见隔壁的女主人正穿着睡衣站在院子里，伸伸手，活动活动胳膊，真是标准的夜锻炼了，呵呵。
今年夏天，雨水特别少，尤其梅雨季节，也成了枯梅，这是历年少有的。于是雨在这个季节，显得格外亲切。好久没有独自坐在雨夜里胡思乱想了。是的，胡思乱想，就是这个词。今天给一个同事发信息问她最近过得怎么样？“看电视 胡思乱想 健身 ……”，看着她回过来的信息，不由得笑了，似乎看见了她小巧的模样，和她说话间神情生动的眉眼。这是个四十多岁的女子，可是不知道为什么，想起她，第一个浮现出来的词就是“可爱”。前不久与人在聊天室里闲谈，对方坚持道，女子到了四十开外，再怎么样也是不可能和可爱一词发生什么联系了。你却颇不以为然。若给他机会结识如你同事一样的朋友，相信，他一定会收回他说过的话。
记得曾经在一篇旧文里写起过另外一个同事的母亲，小小的个子，花白的发，模样却依旧可以毫不夸张地用上可爱来形容！人的可爱其实因人而异，但在你眼里，保持一份纯真与童心，便是可爱不会更改的内涵。当然，可爱应该与做作无缘。
现在，开着书桌上那盏灯，打开两边的窗，在雨夜凉爽的空气里胡思乱想，时光也流逝得悄然。
下午，一个人坐在阳光的休息处，楼上游泳池的喧闹是听不见的，而楼下的人来人往也不至影响，最适合独自遐想。遐想的时光，又往往属于回忆。
At some special time,we can't help thinking of somebody.Sitting quietly at the corner,I can see James clearly.He's swimming in the Fuchun River near the beautiful Guan Moutain.I can see his face,his teeth,his smiling,his glasses in the bright moonlight.I can hear his voice,so softly."Rain,will u love me forever? Rain,do u know how I love u! Rain..." Tears come out,but nobody will see.
Last time we met in the internet. I answered him ,keeping quiet.Maybe it was not necessary for us to chant more,I thought.He had disappeared from my life for a long time,no messages,no phone calls,no words.And I thought he died in my heart.But this time he kept talking.At last I asked him the question which troubled me so long."Why did u leave me without a word?What happened?" And now I knew why.He said one day his mother told him,if he insisted staying with me,he would have no relationships,thus he would not feel happy later."So did she",his mother went on talking,"There would always be anguish in your hearts.No happiness in the future." It was really a terrible afternoon,he said.They quarrelled for a long time,but something really changed in his mind. On that afternoon,he decided to leave."I feared that day,really.I was alone,I couldn't face such a future.You were not with me at that time.So I gave up.It was wrong of me to make such a decision without discussing with u.So I dare not face u.Today I told u all these things,and now I can face u.I'll tell u,I've never forgotten u,the happiest time in my life is with u,I still love u so!..."Time was up,he must go to work.He left in the same way he used to,calling my name for many times.
打开朋友发来的网站，让男女声优美的和声高扬在耳畔。外面的雨声已经不知不觉停了。胡思乱想也就暂时告一段落。该过去的，就那么过去吧……
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